Where have I been, Where am I at?

Wow, it really has been a long time since I have blogged. Alot has been going on in my life weightloss,fitness,deployment, being mommy. I just don't know where to start it has been so long...

Ok so one thing I know all are asking is where am I with my journey, have a fell off , have I reached my mark.... Well no i havent fell completly off...I have had some bad days and weeks. I am not at my goal as of yet but i am still moving forward...The scale and I have a love/hate relationship so we havent been talking for a while...but my clothes are fitting looser...I actually had to go down a size in my uniform and that definatly made me smile......
I am still in Afghanistan waiting to head home...it's not much longer but i plan to get back into blogging!!!

DAY 15

OK i am on a challenge to improve my body even the more with a 30 day challeneg online with Amhad from youtube.It is day 15 and all is going well, the weekends are like free days and i was doing well untill day 10 I REALLY FUCKED UP. i went on a 4 day eat all the shit you know you should not.

any who all is going so well this week i am back to being pumped up.
i am doing a mix of cardio and weight lifting

M/W/FR 60 MINHEAVY WEIGHT LIFTING 30 MIN CARDIO
T/TH/SAT/60MIN CARDIO
SUN REST

My motivation changes almost like evry single day
i was thinking about focusing on muscle building but i now kinda think i should stick to losing some more fat and still weightlifting

MY PRIORITIES

I have really been slacking when it comes to blogging.I have so much going on it is hard.
1 full time mom
2 full time job
3 find time to workout( everyday)
4 youtube
5 did i say full time single mom

I would say being a Good MOM is at the top of my list all others are important because of #1 if i don't work i cant provide for my daughter if i dont workout i will be unhealthy unable to provide for my daughter well youtube thats my own guilty pleasure.

Ok so on to weightloss for a moment i was thinking of getting on a new track of focusing on building muscle.....BIGG MUSCLES.....i still want BIGG MUSCLES...... however i think i might still have ALOT MORE FAT TO GET RID OF.......

so i am at a difficult place right now trying to get it all right my hardest thing right now is dealing with nutrition...NOT THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EAT TO BE HEALTHY but i am ALWAYS SO VERY HUNGRY....i mean i just had breakfast like maybe 2 hrs ago and i feel like i aint had NOTHING.

I don't count calories cuz i know not to eat junk although i do have my moments( THAT IS ANOTHER ISSUE)

ANYWHO.... i am so loving lifting weights and i aint talking no 5-10 pound bunbbell i be REALLY ROCKING IT @ the gym.Men be looking at me like DAMN GIRL get it! One guy was even like can i train with you cuz u aint no joke.

I aint benching 200 pounds or nothing but i do go HEAVY.

WELL got to go ....

REWARD

To day was the day...I decided to reward myself with GETTING my skin tags removed!!!

This journey has NOT been easy by NO MEANS......When i stepped on the scale today it SHOUTED BACK AT ME 154.8 OH MY that is only 1.8 pounds away from the BIGG 100 POUND LOST......

Instead of eating because i was so happy i decided to go to the Dermatologiest and have these things removed.....

WTF!!!

MY MY MY I thought i was Not an emotinal eater....i thought i eat because I just like the way food taste.......WELLLL...............I WAS WRONG!!!!!!I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER....

SEE WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS..................


Today is Valentines day and all....so i went out shopping for a cute outfit and bra to wear tonite...because nothing i have fits anymore....Well i spent like 2 hours shopping and came home with nothing.....

Bras don't fit well because I now have SOOOO MUCH accesss skin that is just hangs all out the cup, side where ever....ok so u say try a push up.... i did that too...pushing up skin AINT CUTE ALL ALL......

For a split second i was like DAMN why the hell i lose all this weight and now can't even get a cute bra to make my NOW DEFALTED BREAT LOOK PERKY......SO THEN....


I WAS MAD pissed hurt all the above I mean DAMN I work hard to get in shape and THIS SHIT AIN'T COOL so.....I ate a LARGE WAFFLE FRY AND BROWNIE WITH ICECREAM....YEP SURE DID....



And i am still pissed cuz i want to go out tonite but still have no bra!!!!!

OK...Today i went to my FIRST EVER SPINNING CLASS.....that is where you get ur BIGG ASS on a small DAMN seat and try to hold on for DEAR LIFE....LOL....





It was GREAT....a little different from my usuall workout...which has consistanly been running...but it was DEFINATLY A WORKOUT.......



This is the outfit i was wearing....YOU CAN'T TELL ME NOTHING...i think i was looking PRETTY CUTE!!!!!!

What do you work out in.....

It used to be when i went to the gym or WORKOUT i would put on WHATEVER....I didn't give a damn if it even matched.....I was like SHIT.....nobody better say shit ...My ass is at the gym that is good enough.....I would wear the biggest baggiest pants and shirts i could find to HID MY ROLLS.....LOL......

NOW...WHO would have figured this BIGG ASS...BIG CLOTHES WEARING FEAMLE...NOW....Be trying to look ALL CUTE and shit.....LOL....YEP that is SOOOO RIGHT....

I bet i spend more money on WORKOUT clothes then anything eles....LOL

I look at it like this.....I have WORKED SOOOOO DAMN HARD to get this BIGG ASS "USED TO BE" in good shape.....SHIT I would be a damn fool for not looking good at the gym.....so I sure be trying to make my outfits match and be all cute.....LOL......

I have a few pics...i wil start to take more......